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July 6, 2012

You never think…

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You never think at 40 years old you would still be fighting the same issues you had as an adolescent. However, sometimes those things follow you all through life. There are a few select people who can overcome that. Whether they learn to shrug it off, ignore it or earn an A+ in the big “fuck you” department is beyond me. I just haven’t mastered any of those skills. Not when it comes being okay with others who need to pick at your insecurity’s. My mom used to tell me when I was young “Never offer ANYONE information. They will use it against you.” How very true…and sad. You get to know people enough to where a certain amount of trust is developing, you think it’s okay to share the deepest things on your heart, mind, soul…But it’s not. It’s NEVER okay to offer information. I, myself am an open book. I pride myself on being that way because I think it’s important for others to know where you stand, who you are, what actually makes you REAL. I like that. People SHOULD know those things. the 21st Century is completely filled with those who don’t know who they are yet, never tried knowing who they are, ect…You just need to be careful. In that journey of “looking for yourself” the times have changed. You just can’t be as honest as you could back in the day…Where people truly respected your traveling paths ya know? I know, I know…it’s a hard pill to swallow. But after so many things you have been through no matter how old, young, whatever there are STILL those people who see you “as you were” instead of just loving you right where you are. Don’t get me wrong though, there is never anything wrong with growth. In your life, spirituality, souk searching…never anything wrong with that. BUT, there is something wrong with people trying to tear down your visions, who you now are, where you’ve come…the growth you’ve already encountered. Taking correction in your journey is an amazing, humble, honorable thing…But taking unjustified criticism is bullshit. Don’t let those who can’t come to grips of ever looking to see where they should be, make you feel bad for knowing you are right where you need to be. A lot of problems I’ve had with others, when I change the perspective of the situation, is really THEIR problem, not mine at all. We should constantly be moving forward but never halted in looking, seeking and finding the things that make us who we are. Don’t let anyone do that to you, ever. Keep things on the surface and never “offer information to just anyone. Let the earn your openness. If someone wants to know the real you by having a look into your soul…Let them show you they really want to see what’s there. For their own journey, their own path…Not just to criticize what’s made yours…That’s bitterness, envy, cruel. That’s not friendship. It’s not. You can feel in your heart what comes from love and what comes from a power trip. Go with your guy. Correction comes from love, criticism comes from bullshit. Learn the difference and embrace being you. 

  SELAH~
CHERyL

 

May 29, 2012

“Failing In Originality.”

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“It is better to fail in originality, than to succeed in imitation.” ~HERMAN MELVILLE~ I love that quote. I speak it to myself almost every day here of late. Even at 40 years old I feel like there are people who still believe they know best for YOUR life than you do. When you decide to follow your own path, they tend to be catty and somewhat removed. It’s ridiculous. My whole life I’ve tried nothing but to get where I want to be balancing being myself and who people thought I should be. However, another quote comes to mind. “He who trims himself to suit others, will sooner or later whittle himself away.” I’m all for being respectful of others who have been there for you, in general, spiritual, ect but to make yourself go crazy thinking you HAVE to be a certain way to get another’s respect and admiration is complete bullshit. I battle this all of the time. I was recently told “maybe not everyone was supposed to be born into greatness. Maybe there are those just born to be average.” Out of all the things I’ve thought about myself through the years and by other people average was NEVER one of them 😉 My view on this subject is this; The world has ONE Jesus Christ. However, the Bible was FULL of Daniels, Priscilla, Paul’s, Jonahs…Joshuas…I could go on and on but I think you see my point. There is not ONE SINGLE PERSON who does NOT have the potential of being any one of those people. EVERYBODY has a purpose. If they didn’t, the bible and good Lord would be a complete and total lie. The sad thing is it always seems to be these over authoritative know it all’s who THINK they know best and over look the most SHADIEST, HEARTLESS people to be in these positions in life where you have to step back and say “WTF?” The problem is those of us who SHOULD be certain places in life are too humble to say anything. It’s a double-edged sword really. If you do take a stand, you’re being rebellious or out of line, if you don’t, you’re just a door mat on the shit stain of life.(Thank you Marshall Mathers 😉 )  It’s hard to find that balance I think. One minute I’m a raging lunatic, the next I’m a strong woman, yet in another breath I’m 14 years old again…Where does it stop?  There just needs to be…more of WHO I am. The only person I have to answer to is the Lord God of Israel yet there are more people focusing on the things I SHOULDN’T be doing (according to them) instead of encouraging me on the things I AM doing. It’s as if there is NEVER enough you can do. It’s a bit redundant. I need to stop worrying about impressing people and trying to earn their respect over and over and over again because let’s face it…no matter what you do, there are just certain people you will NEVER impress. You can be bleeding sweat from your brow as your good intentions are falling to the wayside of life and they WILL find that ONE thing they feel isn’t up to THEIR standard and pick at it until you just die…lol It’s so exhausting man…I hope that anyone reading this just keep their chin up, follow your spiritual gut and seek the Lord ONLY,  if the path you are walking down is THE one for you. God is ALWAYS faithful, it’s His people who are fickle, shady and shallow…

Selah~
Cheryl