I am damaged. Most defiantly, all of us are.
Weather we failed at marriage, school, careers or gardening…It happens.
The main thing to remember is you can get the fuck over it. We’re not damaged goods, we’re human beings, we can survive pain, hardships, broken hearts, anything.
NO I’m not saying time heals ALL wounds. However, it does sooth them quite a bit. Life is a vapor of time man, one breath and it could be gone. Why waste what could be such a beautiful moment because of a “what if?” fear?
Don’t do that to yourself. We become our own worst enemies simply because we don’t believe we can get over something, whatever it may be. We can, we have. You reading this, do you remember how you felt on the worse day of your life?
How are you now?
I have ups, downs and my lows are lower than most of the people in my circle even know…but I get up, every day man. I smile. I live, love, laugh…You have too. If you remain stagnant in fear or comfortable in where you are then you will begin to wither.
To me? THAT would be the worst.
I jump feet first in adventure and what if’s all of the time. The failure of the last one was like a cement brick smacked right into my face, it sucked ass.  But what can you do?
Cry? I did.
Throw a rant? I most certainly did.
Now what?
Now I get the fuck over it and move on.
You can’t NOT take chances. If you don’t at least TRY you will NEVER know. Your “what if” will then become a “I wonder…” I’m not one to do that either. Granted, I would not recommend falling into feelings in a “fuckship” but hey, again, feet first with this chick! But guess what? I’m still here, blogging, getting my shit somewhat together and moving on. For me it will always be finding love that will fuck with my head. That constant feeling of “it’s just not for me” but it’s a whatever, if it happens I will embrace it for sure. I grew up in the 80’s. Every love story ended with the man of her dreams chasing her down in an airport, holding a boom box outside her bedroom window, interrupting a wedding (even if it was hers) or some crazy show of love by making a fool of himself so I have some pretty weird expectations of how MY story should end, haha But whatever yours is, don’t stop looking for it. Don’t wait while your life passes by because you don’t want to be rejected.
No matter what chance it is…take it.
The best chance you will have, will be the one you take.

Selah,
Cheryl