Dear Serenity,
How can I ever make you believe that you are beautiful?
If I could take my eyes and by some miracle God make it to where you could see yourself from my view.
My sweet beautiful girl…
Today you are twenty-one years old and my only wish is that your Grandparents were here to see the amazing woman you have become. Your incredible ability to let things roll off your back and move on without a flinch. You definitely don’t get that from me. We are complete opposites you and I. We are so different yet you are without a doubt my very best friend. The person I run to when I’m sad, the person I want to celebrate with, laugh with, cry and vent too.
You’re my rock baby girl.
You always have been.
You were barely six years old when I had my first anxiety attack in a Wal-Mart, lol I couldn’t find my money and I started panicking. You grabbed my hand “Momma it’s okay…it’s okay…Just calm down…” Do you remember? In a lot of ways it wasn’t fair that I was more of the child and you were the parent and for that I will never be able to apologize enough. So many hidden truths friends and family will never know that you hide in your heart out of love, protection and loyalty to our relationship as mother and daughter, and friends.
I only ask that you believe me when I say not ANY of it goes unnoticed.
You were the strongest little girl.
Brave, bold, secure in your own self.
Even at 6 years old you were my example.
Those characteristics are still there my beautiful baby girl. You just need to look deeper within yourself because life can have that way about it, where you grow older and tend to lose who you used to be. Sometimes it can be a good thing or a bad thing.
You are still brave.
Still bold.
Still confident in who you are.
My hope for you today is that you remember that.
I wish I could have been a better role model to you but I failed, lol But in spite of who I was as a mother you grew into this amazing woman with a strength and ability to read people and situations and see it for what it truly is and call it out on its bullshit or praise it for its indifference.
People say I’m a good writer but if only you would show them the REAL writer of the family and blow their minds with your imagination for worlds nobody would ever dream of until you brought them into an existence.
My soft-spoken child with a wild side.
Don’t allow the world to tame you. There is no reason to let this world intimidate you into being who you were never meant to be. You have a voice. There are people who need to hear it. You have so much to say and as a strong, vibrant woman there is no doubt in my mind that one day you’ll find it again and be the greatness you were DESTINED to be.
My beautiful Serenity…My calm before the storm. You have stepped up and taken care of this family more than anyone will ever know except for the five of us;) Your brothers know it. Your sister recognizes it. I can’t imagine where we would be without you.
You are one of the absolute greatest loves of my life, Ren.
Please know that.
Believe it.
I know it’s your birthday today. But you have given more to me than you will ever realize. Every year on this day I remember what an absolute gift God chose to bless me with when I had you. And even to this very day you were my sunshine, and the most precious and beautiful baby girl I had ever seen.

I love you more…
Mom