“It is better to fail in originality, than to succeed in imitation.” ~HERMAN MELVILLE~ I love that quote. I speak it to myself almost every day here of late. Even at 40 years old I feel like there are people who still believe they know best for YOUR life than you do. When you decide to follow your own path, they tend to be catty and somewhat removed. It’s ridiculous. My whole life I’ve tried nothing but to get where I want to be balancing being myself and who people thought I should be. However, another quote comes to mind. “He who trims himself to suit others, will sooner or later whittle himself away.” I’m all for being respectful of others who have been there for you, in general, spiritual, ect but to make yourself go crazy thinking you HAVE to be a certain way to get another’s respect and admiration is complete bullshit. I battle this all of the time. I was recently told “maybe not everyone was supposed to be born into greatness. Maybe there are those just born to be average.” Out of all the things I’ve thought about myself through the years and by other people average was NEVER one of them 😉 My view on this subject is this; The world has ONE Jesus Christ. However, the Bible was FULL of Daniels, Priscilla, Paul’s, Jonahs…Joshuas…I could go on and on but I think you see my point. There is not ONE SINGLE PERSON who does NOT have the potential of being any one of those people. EVERYBODY has a purpose. If they didn’t, the bible and good Lord would be a complete and total lie. The sad thing is it always seems to be these over authoritative know it all’s who THINK they know best and over look the most SHADIEST, HEARTLESS people to be in these positions in life where you have to step back and say “WTF?” The problem is those of us who SHOULD be certain places in life are too humble to say anything. It’s a double-edged sword really. If you do take a stand, you’re being rebellious or out of line, if you don’t, you’re just a door mat on the shit stain of life.(Thank you Marshall Mathers 😉 )  It’s hard to find that balance I think. One minute I’m a raging lunatic, the next I’m a strong woman, yet in another breath I’m 14 years old again…Where does it stop?  There just needs to be…more of WHO I am. The only person I have to answer to is the Lord God of Israel yet there are more people focusing on the things I SHOULDN’T be doing (according to them) instead of encouraging me on the things I AM doing. It’s as if there is NEVER enough you can do. It’s a bit redundant. I need to stop worrying about impressing people and trying to earn their respect over and over and over again because let’s face it…no matter what you do, there are just certain people you will NEVER impress. You can be bleeding sweat from your brow as your good intentions are falling to the wayside of life and they WILL find that ONE thing they feel isn’t up to THEIR standard and pick at it until you just die…lol It’s so exhausting man…I hope that anyone reading this just keep their chin up, follow your spiritual gut and seek the Lord ONLY,  if the path you are walking down is THE one for you. God is ALWAYS faithful, it’s His people who are fickle, shady and shallow…

Selah~
Cheryl