WRITTEN: February 2012

 When Jesus ascended in Heaven I’m sure the Disciples were a tad bewildered in wondering what was about to happen to all of them. Staying together as family, splitting apart, moving on, ect I’m sure it wasn’t easy for them. With all my years in Ministry there is one thing that is always a certainty and definite, and that is change.
It really sucks.
When you are a Christian you already have the world working against ya let’s face it. However sometimes to soften that blow God gives you a Timothy, a Priscilla, Luke, Peter, ect and you not only become a spiritual family you become a blessed servant for having people by your side within Ministry.
If I said right now at this moment I wasn’t angry I’d be flat out lying to you. I am not only angry I’m confused asking God what the hell just happened? lol
But in NO WAY am I walking out of this building today completely oblivious to the blessing God has bestowed in my life the past 6 years.
To work within Ministry is and honor, to actually get paid and make a living is a miracle! (Ha~Ha)
My heart is completely broken as I leave here today.
These women are my sisters.
This is what i was CALLED to do.
My purpose…the plan God had for me.
Although I will no longer get a paycheck for it, I will STILL continue doing what My Father pressed upon my heart to do.
I LOVE the Pro~Life Ministry. My heart is here, my desire is to minister in love with complete compassion to these women who have been totally desperate and broken from a past abortion or an unplanned pregnancy.
My desire is to give them a hope they never thought possible of being able to heal from an irreversible choice.
My desire is to show them they have other options.
I don’t need a paycheck to validate the calling God has placed within my life…It still sucks. I love this job. The people I worked with…We were in every way a family.
Praying together, hanging out together, studying the Word together…ect…
It’s a change of season.
One day at a time…
So even though I want to stomp my feet and go out kicking and screaming…I won’t.
I’ll Log out,
say my good-bye’s,
get into my car and just breathe…
because no matter what…I KNOW God has my back. He brought me this far, He won’t forget me now 🙂 I can’t explain or understand the circumstances of why my time here is done today, but I can have trust in the fact my calling within this movement is NOT.
It’s perfect that my very last phone call needed for me to share my testimony with the young lady. Her situation was similar to mine 18 years ago…My own choice in facing an unplanned pregnancy, my story.
As if God was saying…”This isn’t over by a long shot Cheryl, we have work to do.”
And to that I say: “Here am I, let’s do this!” 

All the time God is good…And God is good…All the time.
I will not be overwhelmed by this mountain of change that has been laid before me. Even Moses had to walk his mountain alone leaving Aaron and Joshua behind…I’ll be okay. This is okay…

SELAH~

CHERyL~