Turning 40 was a big deal for me. Not in the way any of you are thinking but in a “sigh of relief” kind of way. I would be lying if I said I didn’t think I would be where I’m at in life today. For some odd reason I never seen myself as being married and a mother of 4. I always thought my parents would still be alive at this stage in my life as well as my brothers and sister. Never in my life would I have imagined what life gave to me instead. I love being a mom. It’s the best job I’ve ever had and the hardest but yet most rewarding. I wouldn’t change it for ANYTHING.

Married life is just as crazy. You have your ups and your downs but the key is to never stop laughing with your spouse. People are so quick to call it quits but a good marriage, a REALLY good marriage will wade through the worst and eventually the best will find its way back to you. It’s all about consistency. When one of you can’t be the stronger one of you need to step it up until they are. It’s work, but the marriages that last 5 or more decades will tell you…”For better OR worse…”  and MEAN it.

Being raised Southern Baptist certain traditions have followed me into my adult life but turning 40 and going through the past 6 1/2 years I realize I need to start over with my relationship with Jesus. It’s not about me and other people but just HIM and I. Things I was taught and learned need to be re-evaluated and prayed through. I’m okay with that. Because I know God is faithful. You’re never too old to learn and grow spiritually.

I’m pretty Conservative although I’ve been told I have very Liberal edges and I embrace that. My Political views and opinions have gotten me into some heated conversation and I’m prone to speaking my mind even if I’m the ONLY one who thinks a certain way. I’m all for gun rights, equal rights (for EVERYONE) flat rate tax, I’m VERY ANTI~ABORTION and I stand my ground with that, I may not participate in illegal substances. However, I’m all for the legalization of certain ones. Supporting small businesses, having MAJOR welfare reform, and cutting ridiculous Government spending. I could go on and on. I’m not a fan of either Political party and I feel as though America for so long has voted for a political party when in fact we need to simply vote for a President period.

My heart is completely worn right there on my sleeve. Everything you see is exactly what you will get and I’m okay with that too. Does it leave me vulnerable? Absolutely. For a long time I closed myself  off to that and it was a HUGE mistake. When you shut yourself off to the things that make you, you, there is so much of yourself you lose that eventually when you decide to go back to the REAL you’ll need to regain all of that confidence you tossed out simply because of fear of being OPEN. Hurting sucks. But being loved, laughing with people, enjoying life  from the littlest of things to the biggest of things is worth that vulnerability. Believe me, it totally is.

Last…Music. I ADORE it…Everything from southern gospel to hardcore heavy metal there is NOTHING I won’t listen to. Every so often I’ll even listen to techno (Shhhh…Don’t tell my husband!)

So there you all have it. A tad bit about me. I hope I haven’t worried you or scared you 😉 I hope you follow me I promise I won’t look at you strange for making that move towards this crazy nut who blogs at random about anything. It’s life…Let’s learn to live it together.

Selah~